How could I let myself say such a thing? I opened my heart to him and instead of letting him reach in and break it like I always expected him to, I did someting unexpected when I closed myself off and told him silently that I couldn't love him, though I alwasy have and always will. How could I say something like that to him?

He was my soulmate. Not in the sense of girlfriend/boyfriend, husband/wife, but in the sense of best friends, love-ya-always, my buddy, my friend... There was no question, no doubt... I knew he and I would be close like that forever. But, then he and a not-so-close friend of mine "got together." Then, I fell for him like "that." Then, I tried to come between them and say things I shouldn't have said and eventually, he pulled away and she pulled away and everyone else pulled away and now I'm left here, alone.

Alone. What a dark, foreboding, menacing word. But, that's me. Head to my knees, arms wrapped around me, shivering, shaking, on a bench in a closed-up building... Alone.

I'll never know why it all happened, but there's got to be a reason. So, I have to stand and smooth out my dress and wipe away my tears and hope that somehow this will all work out and I'll no longer live that awful existance--alone.

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